I don't know what to do.
My boyfriend and I have been together for a year now. The abuse started a little bit before we moved in with each other, so about 3 months after we were together. It started with getting mad over absolutely nothing, making me feel so completely insane, calling me a cunt, dumb ass, dumb bitch, dumb mother fucker, worthless cunt.. & the list goes on..
He is always facetiming his friend who lives in Texas now and all they do is bash me, tell me that I need to clean, that I'm his slave, that I'm worthless and that he makes the money and that I have absolutely no say in anything. He talks down to me, and tells me that my family's a piece of shit and worthless.. Gets mad when I FaceTime them or talk on the phone with them. He tells me my friends are shitty and aren't real friends.
Then he started abusing my dogs, throwing them, punching them as hard as he can, and kicking them. I can never play around with him, if I sing playfully he tells me to "shut the fuck up" or "shut the fuck up or he'll hit me.." If we're joking around and I playfully hit him, he takes it to the extreme and once he even grabbed me, turned me around, put me in a chokehold, threw me on the couch and then asked me if I was done being a psycho bitch..
And whenever I cry, it does not even phase him the LEAST bit. He will not show any emotion. He will never apologize for any fight that we have. It's always me and him saying "are you gonna say sorry?" .. Like everything I do is horrible.
He then got mad because I was talking to someone after we had been broken up for a month and we got back together and then he brought it up and threw my phone, followed me into every room, got directly in my face, poked my chest, shoved me against the wall, threw me on the bed, choked me, and shoved my face to the side.. I woke up with a sore jaw and bruises all over my chest. All I got was "sorry, but you were talking to him" blah blah blah. Again.. Making things my fault as an abused does.
I just don't know what to do.. I moved from my family in the state I grew up in & now we're 5 states away, and I don't know what to do. I'm trapped & I feel helpless.