I just need a little help to get back on my feet!
Hi I am a 52 year old woman who has the last five years isolated in the mountains from any friends or family. My choice to relocate from the Midwest, but I had no idea how my story would play out. My children and the rest of my family were so shocked when I decided to move that it started to put a wedge in a relationship. I was just so thrilled to be with someone who loves me so deeply and treated me so wonderful that I didn't see the damage it was doing until it was too late.
After the first year things started to change drastically, and I soon found myself deteriorating. I lost my job. My health was going downhill fast, and it wasn't obvious to me as it was to some on the outside. I started counseling you help me deal with the depression and anxiety that I started to experience. I counseled with this family therapist and many other Medical professionals for over 3 years. Finally the middle of March of this year, I got the strength to get my driver's license back, and I managed to scrape up enough money from my disability check to purchase the car. Within two weeks of that I have packed up my car and I left. All I had was my personal belongings, my little tiny car, and enough money to get somewhere my children were living.
Well I am now in Wisconsin, where I have never been before. My youngest daughter, her husband, and their baby live here, and I am so blessed to be close to them. They are a young couple, and they are just barely getting by, and I have decided that I do not want to be a burden to them at all. I have found a place to live, and I just don't know how I'm going to put together the deposits and pay my other bills all this first month. I am having a yard sale, but I don't have much to sell since I left most of it back in California. I have been to the Salvation Army, a woman's shelter, and a few other places that offer some help, and I have gotten a little gas money here and there. But, most places are out of funds and so it's been pretty difficult. I have worked out a budget, and I can pay my bills and get by with my monthly disability check. It's just the initial expenses of setting up a home and deposits and hook up fees and car registration and similar things that make it look impossible. I really do still love my husband, but I know that it is not healthy for me to be there or is it healthy for me reach out to him for help because I know he will draw me back in. Please if you are in any position to help me at this difficult time, I would appreciate it so much.
I had checked into the thrift stores and Craigslist and yard sales and different things like that, and I could acquire the minimal things that I will need and pay my first month's rent and my security deposit and all of my hook-up fees all for about $2,000. I am working very hard not being anxious about these things and praying and putting my trust in the Lord, knowing that he will take care of me. And I believe that He pointed me to the website today because I've never done it before, and here I am pouring out my story to complete strangers. Even though there is no reason anyone would help me or trust that I'm not making this story up to get some free money. I pray that you will read my story, that you will pray about it, and the Lord will let you see that my story is real and that my heart has been broken. It is healing, and someday, when I have become whole again, I will be the person reading this story and hoping to be able to help someone else who is experiencing the heartache that I have experienced. Feel free to contact me with any questions or concerns. God bless you for taking the time to read my story and for any prayers that you made for me as I make my way through this chapter in my life and look for the good that will come out of this.
I have been working with New Horizons against domestic abuse in LaCrosse WI. They have been wonderful. They just don't have that kind of money to give to one individual person to help them out. They have a wonderful shelter there if anyone who needs it. If you preferred to make a donation to a non-profit organization, you may make your donation to New Horizons and designate the funds to help my situation. And, if you are looking for a organization to support on a regular basis, I would definitely recommend that you look into New Horizons. They are a good organization, and they help a lot of people in a situation of domestic abuse or sexual assault.
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