Another Day, Another Step

by Sam

I am just me. I am healing, slowly. I left the man who abused me six years ago. So to everyone else, I am fine now. But I know different, as most of you do. I had 22 years of abuse, from the age of 16. Physically and emotionally. I don't think I accepted what I had been through until I left him. I am not sure I even do now. It plays over and over on my mind, yet no-one wants to listen anymore. Who could blame them? I regret that my inner voice often now sounds like him, belittling me, telling me how useless I am, I am a sad sack of shit.... apparently.

But I have also come so far. I found the strength to leave an abusive companion, to be a pretty fantastic single mum, to get a small job, to manage my finances (just about), to change the locks, get a divorce :), get a dog :) :), start therapy, and redecorate. Sometimes I am too busy looking at my failures to notice all the things I have done. I am a survivor. I am not completely fine, I am struggling, but I am free now, and it is so much better, and it will get even better. One day I will be happy to socialize with my head held high. I will speak, and maybe even flirt, with a man. One day I will be ready to fall in love, travel, get a better job.

One day! :)

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Strong women
by: Anonymous

I think you are doing a fantastic job the first step was that you made a step to leave. Keep moving forward and pursue your dreams or whatever you want to do for yourself, take time to heal sometimes it does take time and it is not a quick fix.

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