My story

by R
(America)

Three months ago, I left my abusive relationship of 7 years. I know that sharing my story will help in my recovery, and I need help.

When we met, I was 18 and he was 23. We were young, and I thought we were in love. The abuse didn't start physically, it started verbally and emotionally. It became physical during year 4. I should have left the first time he hit me, but I was so broken mentally and emotionally that I justified it to myself and believed he only did it because he was drunk and I made him mad. He really loves me I told myself, I must have done something to provoke him. I can do better, I can be better. Well I learned the hard way that love doesn't hurt. It doesn't hurt mentally, emotionally, physically or spiritually.

The last straw was when he kicked me down the steps outside of where we lived. I was used to not getting an apology from him. However this time, he laughed at me and as he was walking away, he called me a bitch.

A lot happened during those seven years. I am not really sure if I am ready to face it myself. I have been getting a lot of flashbacks lately, and it is hard to face them. I know that getting through it is the only way to recovery, but it is really really hard. When I am ready, I will share more. But for now, this helps.

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Feeling inspired
by: Wanda

Thanks for sharing your story or at least the parts that your ready for. I totally understand. I've been out of my abuse for two decades and I still have problems accepting all the abuse that I suffered from my ex-husband. I hope to share a little details soon.Thanks for the inspiration.
Be free
by: Anonymous

I can relate to your story in some ways. I was in an abusive relationship also. I have flashbacks almost every day and nightmares every single night. I don't know how to stop these thoughts and they haunt me whenever they come about. You are not alone. Bad things happen to the best people. You will get through this I promise. I believe in you
Dark Confessions
by: Jenn Sadai

I complete understand and can relate. My relationship started when we were 18 and 20. He was incredibly sweet and I never expected that it would turn physical. It started with an arm squeeze that I shouldn't have ignored. By the 6th year, he tried to kill me in my sleep. Can I suggest reading Dark Confessions of an Extraordinary, Ordinary Woman? It's the story of what I endured and how I recovered. I hope it helps you heal.

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